Ramble Redhead Blog

September 23rd, 2007

Sad Sunday

Posted by admin in church, friends, life

Maybe it was the little sleep I received or maybe it was leftover blues from Friday (see that post for why) becuase I was in such a mood today. I woke up and cuddled with Joe and then decided to go to church so I took a quick shower and made my way over there. I drove into the parking lot and was happy to see many cars there and walked in with my pop cans they use to make money for the church. I saw a friend of mine and sat down and the service began and yet again irony hit home with me. As I have told you many times that my work has not been going well and so I have had issues with my boss for a while now. Tomorrow I was going to be talking with him and since he wrote me an email on Friday night telling me how my sales for the month were so bad that he wanted to know what I was going to do to turn it around. I thought the world was coming down on this call and was getting stressed out. So I thought being in church would be good for me and seeing some friends etc would help too.

What happens is the pastor begins to talk about a passage where there are issues with a boss and the employee and I almost laughed when she began talking. This has not been the first time she has done this and it is like she has been watching my life like in the movie that Jim Carrey was in and I was shocked when she continued on and on about this. I could relate in so many ways and it made me realize that I have some issues I need to work on.

Next came the time where people can say out loud prayers for people they care about and the pastor with her down said something that truly hit me once again as she talked about a lady at church who I had an instant connection with was in a car accident on Thursday. She was at a stop sign and this old man slammed into the back of her truck and she is so lucky to be alive – she is very sore and she is worried that her truck will be totaled. I was in shock since I had no clue this had happened and many of us turned and looked at her and she was still freaked out by all this (I know I would be too) and so after the services I went to her and we talked. She told me what had happened and I told her how glad I was she was ok and she hugged me and thanked me. She is one amazing woman and I can’t tell you how much she has done fo the people at this church and I am so glad she is in my life.

Afterwards, I went back home and began to do some work I felt I had to do and Joe helped me with some stuff and seeing how I was busy he decided to go home and get some stuff done there. I was so consumed on doing this I ended up not doing my movie night which is very rare for me to do – even with family functions I leave in time for this event. I guess I was not in a mood to host the event and didn’t want to deal with all of the people at that moment. I did get alot done and I was happy for that.

September 21st, 2007

Thanks for my life….

Posted by admin in death, life, love, work

As you can see by many of the posts I write about my job and how boring it has been lately. I travel on the roads of Indiana, Michigan and Northern Illinois every week for the past 5 years and have driven over 180,000 miles. Casualities of this job have been my ex, legs getting sore, I don’t get to see my family, friends and current partner as much as I would like. Benefits: I have met some wonderful people via my podcast while on the road and been able to get some perks from the job like free food, free hotels etc.

Today was going the usual way only the joy of driving in the rain helped to make it different. I went to see an account which could turn out to be a good one so we shall see. What happened next really shook me up and I was driving to my next account – going down this curvy road and as I completed the curve I look to see a van is heading my way in MY LANE and so I slam on the horn and praying to God that he/she is going to be moving over and I won’t get killed. My guardian angel must have some serious bumps and bruises because the van moved over just in time and I was lucky. I could have been killed instantly and for what? Someone on the cell phone talking to his/her love? Trying to change the radio since you didn’t want to hear the latest trash from Brittany? I really don’t care at the moment I am busy shaking and happy I am ok. I imagine what would have happen if I wasn’t and how I would have missed Joe and everyone I love including those wonderful people who take the time to listen to my show and comment and even the ones who don’t.

It made my realize that this job is not that important to me and how I am going to do my best to find something else soon so I don’t have to be on the road as much. Send those positive vibes my way people please!